Ponderings In The Field of Grace

Time for some honesty. I’ve been struggling for a long time now in my spiritual walk. It has just been…hard.

A few weeks ago a very good friend of mine put me in my place about a few things. She got on me for not teaching more than I have. She really let me have it for wasting the talents God has given me. (Her words not mine.) Anyway, today during Sunday School our teacher told us he would be out of town next Sunday, so he was looking for volunteers. I didn’t say anything. All through the lesson God kept reminding me of little things, and basically walked all over me through that lesson to remind me of something I used to love…teaching Scripture.

You see a few years ago I taught an adult Sunday School. I did a lot of things wrong, and a few things right, but God showed me so much during that time. I miss it. I had forgotten how much until today.

As I sat in that class this morning I was reminded of how scary it is to teach. I realized I am scared to death, but I also feel like it is the right thing for me to do. So at the end of the class I told the teacher I would think about doing it, and he let the class know to check our room first before going to another class.

I’m scared senseless. The last time I taught I was hurt so bad. It’s taken me a long time to heal, but I would like to believe I have. Maybe this is the final band-aid to come off. Who knows? The only thing I know for sure is that I can’t do this unless God is doing it in me. So I will find out this coming Sunday. Either God will show up, or I will fall flat on my face…again…

I’m back. I actually took a vacation, and did my best not to overdo it and just relax. I think we all needed it. I know I did! I’m hoping to post a trip report soon on everything we did while at the beach. As soon as I get a little free time I’ll post it.

Right now we are getting back into the swing of things, and starting to kick it into high gear for a while. It’s the perfect weather here to stay inside and focus on school. The temps have really dropped off here in the last few days, and the winds have been getting stronger. Just the kind of weather that you like to see from the inside of the house with a nice warm cup of hot chocolate. (Which I have here with me as I type!)

8 days until we go to the beach. 8 days and 2 or 3 hurricanes. Ah, the joys of a September vacation on the southeast coast. We are carefully monitoring the situation and praying things will be okay.

In the meantime we are preparing to get everything in order.

Sports Guy is also anxiously waiting for our trip, because the day we leave is his birthday. He can’t wait. It’s hard to believe he will be 9 already. Where has the time gone? He’s growing up so much.

While we’re getting everything ready for our trip, we are also working on school. We’ll be finished up with the first quarter by the end of this week. Whoo-Hoo! The kids have been working hard on their subjects, and they seem to be learning a lot.  We seem to have a good range of grades. You can definitely tell where their weaker areas are, but they are improving.

I’m hoping to do a little end of the quarter celebration for them since they have been working so hard.  I think that and a week at the beach should be a pretty nice way to celebrate, don’t you?